Now, i am the student of one favorite school in Yogyakarta, i proud of it. But, i feel like i have a big burden on my back. I've a big responsibility to keep my score, and to improve my skill on leadership. I can't do this by myself, i need God to help me on this bad situation. I need an angel-in-disguised. I need an angel to catch my tears and hold me when i am down. But, where's the angel?
On the first chapter of my new life at my Senior High School, i try to make it worth. I try to make friends with them, but it still hard. Hard to talk with them (especially boys -_-) hard to laugh with them, hard to joke with the boys. They just keep silent.
Sometimes, i miss all parts of my life, that i've been left in the past. I miss that moments when my Junior High School teachers were angry at me, when they recalled me to study hard. When my friends were begging me to teach them.
I miss the way i felt like 'my life is perfect' when i'm still a JHS student, I miss the way he looked at me, i miss the way when he made a small talk with me. I miss the way i felt like an unrequited-love.. You know, it feels hard to leave your perfect world, and start your new life at a rude-hell :( it feels different. Very different..
And actually, i envy with the girls on my class. They can make it works- and i can't. They can talk with the boys, can laugh together. And i can't -_- ooh okay. My fault. I can't adapt with them, i can't be an easy going girl, can't be a funny girl. But, it's my style. Let the time repairs all of mistakes i've been done :( Let the time flows fast, so i can know them further. And at the end, i wish i can respect them, i can accept all of my friends like who they are. And i hope they'll be.
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